Lifeline of a new pet June 28, 2002 - 11:15 a.m.

I should get a goldfish.

Then I could fill that empty aquarium in my room with all my useless tears, and they would then have a reason for intruding in my life.

I don't know what my stupid problem has been lately. I'll be perfectly fine and happy one second, then crying the next. I can't explain why. I've been full of stress lately, but I can't word exactly what the stress is coming from.

I'm going to Florida on Monday. I'm staying for a month. I know I've mentioned that before... but I'm not even packed yet. I have this odd uneasy feeling about going. I used to go every year. I used to be so excited about being able to visit everyone. I used to have everything packed two weeks ahead of time.

I used to, I used to, I used to..............

Now I don't even know what to take. Now I have doubts of even going. Now I haven't even set a single thing into my suitcase. Now I'm all confused.

I can't find one single reason why I shouldn't go. I love my family, and they're always so welcoming and kind. I'm eager to see them, because I haven't seen them in nearly 3 years now. So, I'm not afraid I might be going into an unfamiliar situation. *shrugs it off and changes the subject*

We're leaving here in about an hour. He's taking me home. I'll be there all weekend. Packing whatever I think of at the last second. Dwelling on pointless stress. Wondering why I am the way I am. I'll have to pet Romeo and Twink lots and lots and overfeed them with treats to make up for leaving them with her for a month. I wish I could take them with me, especially Romeo.

*sighs*

There's nothing better than a long shower while stressed. I should do that now, while I'm around running water.

P.S. - We saw both Lilo and Stitch and Minority Report yesterday. Very very very good movies.

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