The current mood of the little nikki girl
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I'm not afraid of moving things, I'm just afraid of boxes falling on my head May 28, 2002 - 2:47 p.m.

I'm not afraid of standing still
I'm just afraid of being bored
I'm not afraid of speaking my mind
I'm just afraid of being ignored
I'm not afraid of feeling
And I'm not afraid of trying
I'm just afraid of losing
And I am afraid of dying
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you
Yes I do
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I....

I'm not afraid of being sick
I'm more afraid of being well
I'm not afraid
Put the gun in my hand
I'm just afraid it will hurt like
Hurt like hell
I'm not afraid of screaming and I'm not afraid of crying
I'm just afraid of forgetting
And i am afraid of dying
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you
Yes I do
Without you use I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I do....
fear of
fear of
fear of
fear of
I'm not afraid of looking ugly
I couldn't care what they say
I'm not afraid of happy endings
I'm just afraid my life won't work that way
I'm not afraid of forgiveness
I absolve you everything
I'm not afraid of lying
But I am afraid of dying
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you
Yes I do
Without you all I do is sit and think about you
Without you yes i....

~ Fear of Dying ~
~ Jack Off Jill ~



I've had my two (out of 3) Jack Off Jill cd's on rotate for the past 2 days. It's been awhile since I last listened to them, and I kept leaving them at my house, where I can't listen. Not can't because of my mom, I don't give a shit what she may have to say about my music. I'm an adult, and I hate her music too, so we have an understanding. "Don't play that shit around me" (Me to her, not the other way around) But can't, because I have no electricity in my room. I've got one of those drop lights that mechanics use cheesing the power from her room, so that I have light to read. I've got a cd player in our basement, but trying to get to it isn't worth the effort. I think there are two bookshelves, a desk and a few piles a boxes blocking the way. But then again.... I've thought about taking on the challenge one of these slow and boring weekends. Pretty soon, the basement will be the only vaguest escape from the INTENSE heat, so I may as well have a working radio while I'm melting.

Babble babble babble. That's quite enough of that.

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