Deleted and Purged May 05, 2004 - 5:39 p.m.

Becky's picking me up tonight after Angel so that we can go to this early tomorrow morning.

"Parents and babies can enjoy the latest movies in a baby-friendly setting."

It's actually a pretty cool idea, as this allows parents to see movies, without the hassle of setting up a babysitter. Granted, I think the movies are typically kid friendly. For example, tomorrow they will be showing 13 Going on 30. It's only one session, once every other week, and you don't have options for which movie you will see. But it still allows you to go see something, as well as giving your baby a chance to start socializing. In addition to the parents. New parents can meet other parents which can then grow to having someone new to ask for advice, a friend, a babysitter, and/or a playdate for your own kid.

There's really no reason for me to go, other than to be another pair of arms to help with Hallie and to simply get out and see a movie. 'See' being the operative word there. With a theater full of babies who will potentially have crying fits and the volume already being lowered, it's hard to tell just how much of the movie one will be able to take in. But, that's the point. Anyone going to this particular showing, goes knowing that the theater will be full of babies, thus noise and constant movement. So the general patron has no right to get pissed off for someone bringing a noisy kid into the theater, because that's the whole purpose of them setting this up.

This gives me an excuse to go see a movie I thought looked kind of cute, though silly. I don't know that I would have gone to a baby showing if they were to show something that required any sort of attention span though. That would be a waste of money on my part, but probably still a nice change and a good opportunity for the parents involved.

Also, I think when you're finally a parent, it's much easier for you to pay attention to an involved movie, while still taking care of a kid and dealing with constant noises. Kind of like this new sense you've been given with the addition of a child. Multi-tasking at its finest. More accurately, you learn to adapt as a parent.

Three episodes of Angel left. I really hope they follow through with the movies. Either tv or big screen. I would love to see either. I'm not ready to have it end and I'm definitely not ready to have a TV season without a Whedon show. Sounds like the closest thing to actually happening, will be the Buffy animated series... I'm cool with that.

I knew I shouldn't have invested any time into ScribbleJournal. I got an account, fucked around with it. I added several weighty, confessional type entries and thought that would be a good place to just really vent things that I normally would never say - here or in real life. Sure enough, after I get a handful of really good, introspective entries... ScribbleJournal goes down.

That's been awhile now. I keep hoping that the site will go back up one day, and I'll be able to retrieve my entries, if nothing else. I've considered just using my other Diaryland account to replace it.

But I like the idea of having some place completely different, to let out these completely unlike-me rants. Things that are only fleeting thoughts. Things that might be glimpses of alternate personalities fighting it out in my head. Things that I usually deny to myself even exist. These things are highly rare, but it's nice to have some place to put them that's seperate from my normal thoughts. Much like how they are in my head.

It's that thing, that could easily become a crutch if I'd let it. That thing that would stay hidden from everyone. That thing that could potentially help me. It's that thing that I'm always fighting with, but this could allow it a chance to breath and be free, while still keeping it under control.

Captive freedom.

Yeah, I'm not really making much sense to myself either.

All I know is that I thought of finding a new home for the insanity, and it was taken away. I'm trying LiveJournal now, but every possible name I would even consider has been taken.

"Deleted and purged" - then why not make the name available again, jerkies?!

Maybe I'll check some other sites out.

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