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Damn Germs November 04, 2002 - 10:35 a.m.

Yesterday I felt like ass.

Today I feel worse.

This is no fun, I tell you. No fun.

But, I predicted that I would get very sick this year. I haven't been very sick in a few years. I feel that maybe it's starting....

(Very sick, for me, means severe flu or strep... to the point of not being able to move.)

The last time I remember being very sick, I had strep that was on the verge of being mono. I was forced to go to the doctor's even though I couldn't walk.

All I really remember of the doctor visit was him doing the heartrate test.

Exceedingly high while simply sitting (I used to remember the actual number) and completely uncountable after standing.

All I did was stand up, and my heart was beating too fast for him to count.

I couldn't stand for long periods of time. Hell, if I so much as sat up for a few seconds, I would instantly become very faint and nauseous and have to lie back down.

So I spent that full week or two lying on the floor, in front of the tv with 'juice box' type drinks conveniently in reach. I wouldn't move for days.

Trying to go to the doctors' was complete hell.


Is this what I have to look forward to this year?

Maybe it will be my chance to truly relax.

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